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hey

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 09:08:28 GMT

i guess some of you peeps din realised i changed my url ... here it is..

http://quietscreamings.livejournal.com/

i kinda miss xanga though.. ):

how are you now?

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 16:17:55 GMT

its been like so dam long since i last saw you...or feel the old you.. i just viewed one of your very ingenious buddy's blog abt hw you telling him I you dreamt of me and it feels like losing a part of you when we left each other(06).. i never know you can feel this way.. i always thought MISS ure this cold heartless monster , i am wrong.. but its all too late now.. females' sixth sense are always right i bet a million that things had changed , so much that i forgotten how does it feels like , how we used to be already.... rmb go go to the disco and that super long night we had togetz ? rmb our late night movies at the very run down cinema at clementi(its alr closed down already sigh. it collaborates with our very run down r/s too...)? carebear power? escada ibiza hippie? renji and our love for bandits and assasins? how we PLAYED so hard to get our very first psp togetz? and in the end you sold it away cos we got so sick of it and we used the money to go "fine" dining for the very first time togetz? it was the time when both of us wasnt working ... everyday we wld eat chicken rice our fav stall(bt now even the chicken rice stall also change boss and now the chicky rice taste like fuck) it seems like the things ard us are trying to help us to forget ... everything is gone.. all those precious memories .. they are doing us a favour.. U it felt as if it was really a long dream and i had alr woken up frm it.. why does it feels so wrong now.............................................

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 02:00:32 GMT

almost everyone is pretending. friends told me they wld be there for me and gimme their support but they went away-for the sake of their own , people who seemingly are my everyday buddies seems all plastic to me-because to one of them i'm the 2nd best, so if you dont have the 1st-best , you gt no choice you settle for the 2nd-best , and when the 1st-best comes back , im nothing left. so i dont care less about doing much better anymore. you who claimed that you would keep the promises , but those become empty promises-and you just keep lying, even truths have alr become lies. people can think that i am blur at times but i am not dumb...

i almost gave up, felt so terrible that i even thot of who would even come to my funeral..

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 18:20:52 GMT

Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name?
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
Beautiful things.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

So many beautiful things

Now what do I do?Got up early, found something's missing
my only name.
No one else sees but I got stuck,
and soon forever came.
Stopped pushing on for just a second, then nothing's changed.
Who am I this time, where's my name?
I guess it crept away.

No one's calling for me at the door.
And unpredictable won't bother anymore.
And silently gets harder to ignore.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
Beautiful things.

Take this happy ending away, it's all the same.
God won't waste this simplicity on possibility.
Get me up, wake me up, dreams are filling
this trace of blame.
Frozen still I thought I could stop,
now who's gonna wait.

No one's calling for me at the door.
and unpredictable won't bother anymore.
and silently gets harder to ignore.
look straight ahead, there's nothing left to see.
what's done is done, this life has got it's hold on me.
just let it go, what now can never be.

So many beautiful things

Now what do I do?
can I change my mind?
did I think things through?
It was once my life - it was my life at one time.

I forgot that I might see,
So many beautiful things.
I forgot that I might need,
To find out what life could bring.

it felt diff now... if i can laugh whole heartedly when you tell me something funny as i used to , nt as if i still can have much more sincered gd bye kisses , nt as if we can do what normal couple does , nt as if i cant tell apart whether you're lying or not.. i rather i dont know how to tell them apart.. for a moment i felt like a complete stranger to you .. like i dont know you, you dont even know me , there isnt closeness anymore... you dont belong to me and i dont belong to you , we do whatever we feel like it.... im trying nt to feel upset cos it seems that being this way seems much better ... i should be happy because ure free and im free... and there isnt any unhappiness anymore.. but im really afraid of knowing what would become of us now because i never ever thot of it before ... like how are we now... i am willing to do anything to bring back that day... and i mean it........

Thursday, November 22, 2007

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 18:29:45 GMT

guys can be even bitchier than girls. something i learn today.

how

Thu, 22 Nov 2007 04:56:37 GMT

your friend got together with someone you like and all you can do to tell them is

"all the best"

sighhhhhh

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 19:23:28 GMT

i feel even worse aft meeting you.

Love foolosophy , mondo grosso's

Mon, 19 Nov 2007 18:55:36 GMT

physically here but nt here

sometimes i just wish for us to go separate ways...........i wish i can press restart and have a brand new life.. i messed up my own life..........i deserve all these. decisions were made by myself.

i wish i can have a full facial plastic surgery , have endless rave parties whenever i feel like it , have like 1 billion SGD now , no work , no stress , seeing you everyday , cuddle togetz , receiving care and concern frm you , look at you for a while before i fall asleep , smelling each other everyday , i just need you.. ive never felt so lonely than now

friggin lazy

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 14:13:35 GMT

did hair extension, shopping... manz i love my load!

HAHA and yeah zouk on wed plush on sat this week
anyone gg ?

so so so many things happened... i was rather shocked... that you can be there for me when i need you the most.. like you promised me.. thanks.. i come to realised you had alr become like one of my family members alr.. i shldnt had blown that temper today im sorry. i hope you see this. cant wait for the party on dec ..

NGA

rendezvous

Sun, 11 Nov 2007 14:02:50 GMT

it was almost perfect this very night

but it just dont felt quite right...

dec..dec...